HURRA DÅ! DETTA ÄR NÅGOT ATT FIRA DAMNIT!

May the Fourth(Som i fjärde Maj) be with you. Kul liten ordlek just eftersom det låter lite som en populär replik ifrån Star Wars, 'May the Force be with you.'. Nu ska jag bombardera detta inlägg med bilder och sådant jag hittat på tumblr.(Min Star Wars tumblr.)
May the Force, and the Fourth, be with you all, young ones!

Nu ska jag kolla runt om jag kan hitta Star Wars grejer jag kan köpa och ha i mitt rum. BYE.

Ja rubriken får ni klura på själva. TROLL.

Mennnnnnnnnnnnnnn jag haaaaar kollat Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron. Den är, som den alltid varit, gudomligt vacker, fin, underbar, oslagbar... a. Musiken med hihi. Installerar alla Sims 2 spel atm, eh. ah. och är som vanligt på tumblr. Fangirlar. Har fått runt 150 followers! och ja, snackade även med Laura igår via skype-samtal, tysk chey, hon ska troligtvis också på Bloody Con. ;D

ah men alla bryr sig ju så jävla hårt. UGH. Alva borde fan logga in nu vi måste planera vår utflykt till Eriksdalsbadet! sjhfgjhs.

bai.

Hm. By now så vore det en underdrift att säga att jag är besatt av TVD och min underbara OTP.

SÅ. Jag skulle livestream'a TVD igår eftersom jag inte skulle överlevt mer utav denna hiatus. Men jag kommer ALDRIG livestream'a igen. Ugh. Mitt i en Delena scen så fuckades allt upp och jag var tvungen att vänta typ aslänge för att få ladda ner avsnittet och sen se klart. IT WAS FUCKIN WORTH IT THO. Hela denna fandomen exploderade och det är ett under att tumblr inte blev helt jävla överbelastat. Jag har spammat sönder min tumblr med shit från igår jskdhfjks och åh. Redan innan avsnittet kunde jag inte andas ordentligt, svalde hela tiden och det gjorde ont i magen av förväntan och spänning.

Jag, innan, efter och under avsnittet; Speciellt i slutet;

IT FUCKIN ISN'T FANTASY ANYMORE YOU GUISE! IT'S REAL IT'S ON IT'S FUCKIN ON.

Hm ja. LOTS OF FEELINGS.

SHIT FRÅN TUMBLR DÅ KOMMER NU.

Things I am excited for tonight in TVD 

• Delena

Speaking of Elena, it sounds like Nina Dobrev will be spending A LOT more screen time with her off-screen loverboy, Ian Somerhalder. Delena fans, we can’t say much, but we will say this: STAY TUNED!

Ett inlägg ifrån mig;

i’m crying so hard my tears are falling and i’m struggeling with breathing… and my jaw hurts, i was biting a coca cola bottle during the whole porch scene and crying and whispering “i can’t i can’t i can’t omg omg please i can’t breathe oh god…” - true story. Satt och bet på en cola flaska under hela sista scenen, grät och viskade det där ovan, och sen typ fuckade min käke så den ba hej hoppar ur led lite under en stund. Det typ lät askonstigt. Inte för att jag paid so much attention, för upptagen med SCENEN OMG JAGDFUDSFHDSKJF jag har fortfarande inte kunnat bearbeta det ännu.

Flera inlägg ifrån tumblr eftersom hela jävla fandomen exploderade och folk bombarderade min dash med GIFs, edits och allt och jag kudne inte vara lyckligare. Det är fortfarande fyllt med DE.

“He’s got a reason to be in a good mood when we come back next week. We start the episode with him in the shower starting his day off with a smile.” — Julie Plec on Naked Damon scene.
Now I want next Thursday.

REASON:

Paramedics: You seem to have collapsed. So can you tell me what happened?
Me: They kissed.

Jag imorse;

Still replayin that porch scene like crazy, feeling my heart pound and cry and get all warm and 

every time i see that look on Damon’s face when saying “If i’m gonna feel guilty about something i’m gonna feel guilty about this” my heart skips a beat. No two. Nope, my heart literally stops for seconds. And when he places his hands around her face getting ready to kiss her and she is as fast as him meeting his lips my heart stops once again. I FUCKING CANT BELIEVE THEY KISSED… i need to lie down and die again to process it and wake up and re-watch  the scene and then believe it. And get my heart broken by that look on Damons face„ omg she clings to his hands like that, trying to make them stay there and to keep him close to her. Holding his hands, silently begging him “don’t let go, don’t ever let go.”

oh and that comforting, little Damon smile clad his face when he left. I could see the words “don’t worry, Elena. you don’t have to say anything. Just go to bed, and get some rest. We can talk about it some other time.” written in his face. Cause you can see that Elena is tryin to find the right words, or any words at all. She’s speechless and i understand her.

SO MUCH DELENA ON MY DASH RIGHT NOW. I COULDN’T BE HAPPIER.

No, you know what. If i'm gonna feel guilty i'm gonna feel guilty about this.

The look that they give each other is just, “We finally crossed the line, fuck.” I think both of them are scared now because neither of them fought off that kiss. Elena didn’t push back she didn’t resist, she molded into his form, she melted with that kiss. Its like all that pent up drive she had to refuse his advances, and her own personal desires, just disintegrated beneath his smoldering passion and adoration for her. Her mouth a gape, almost begging him to push forward and kiss her again is just proof to her harboring desires that she keeps so well burred. This kiss went exactly as I hoped it would, his final realization of “What the hell? No, I’m going to grow a pair and kiss the woman I’m madly in love with because I might as well give some meaning to my guilt.” was much more meaningful to me than him weighing in the odds and just leaning in to see if she moved. The fact that he took her and just kissed the hell out of her and showed her what kind of passion lies in a man as in love as he is makes that kiss even more beautiful. They both can’t handle it anymore and he finally decides to do something about it. He spoke what the entire fandom has been screaming at for years, just kiss her!  Nothing could have been more perfect about that moment. I can’t wait to see the aftermath this might ensue.

That Delena kiss… I will admit something and have absolutely no shame whatsoever.
I cried. They kissed, I screamed, and I cried tears of joy when it was over. I’ve waited for this since day one. This ship has almost killed me with it’s absolute flawlessness.

Feel all the feelings!!

As soon as they step out onto that porch, you just know something special is about to happen. It’s their spot. The place where Elena first witnessed Damon to something selfless, when he first did something for her.

All he wants is to reassure her, to make her feel some sort of positive emotion. He tells her it will be okay, because he knows she has become her rock. He knows that she will take his words to heart, and then maybe she will sleep that little bit easier.

‘He’s so lucky to have you for a sister.’

This line just screams how much he loves her. Not even just love, but how much he is in AWE of her. He thinks that her strength, and her courage, when it comes to her family, is something supernatural in its own right. Basically, he looks at her and all he sees are rainbows. She’s an angel to him, she really is. Not that he has placed her on some pedestal, where she has to be perfect. No. He knows her flaws. He loves her flaws. But an angel in the sense that she is simply divine to him. There will never be another.

‘I don’t know what I would do if you weren’t here.’

This quote barely needs analysis. Her need, and want for him is clear. But its easy to just think of Season 3 with this. But the beauty is, she means ALL OF IT. Not just since Stefan left. EVERYTHING. From that moment in 1x07 when Stefan didn’t have the strength to do it but Damon did. And from that moment on, it was always Damon that saved her. It was always Damon that aided her. It was always Damon that would move heaven and earth to get to her. It was always Damon.

His face is so beautiful in this moment. You can tell how much it means to him, to hear those words…but then that guilt rears its head again. I won’t get into Damon/Stefan here, but the hate on Damon is ridiculous. Damon is in love with this girl, and for a long time he believed he would never have a chance with her. And that was okay. As long as she was safe and happy, then he would gladly sit back. But now she’s looking at him with those eyes, and he KNOWS she feels it too. Yet he still can’t have her? Even though she would be willing. Imagine how much that must be tearing him apart inside. 

And then there’s also that nagging though inside his head. ‘It’s always gonna be Stefan.’ While I am confident that the writers will show us otherwise, in the end, Damon still believes he is second best. So he turns, and takes a step away. It’s Damon that increases the space between them. It’s Damon that brings up Stefan. He HAS to be honest with her, and let her know why Stefan betrayed them. He HAS to know that everything between them, every feeling, is real.

‘For wanting what I want.’

The way his voice softens, sweet jesus. So much emotion in those few words. He has wanted her for SO LONG. And she is RIGHT THERE. And her eyes fall to his lips. HER EYES to HIS. Not the other way around. And she says ‘Damon’ but her voice is a whisper. She is already breathless. SHE WANTS IT TOO. But she has been fighting it for so long, that it terrifies her. The thought of what it all means, terrifies her. Yet when he turns to leave, she finds that she can’t move. She is frozen to the spot. Locked in a war with herself, her heart against her head.

Damon stops. Because why shouldn’t he have this one moment? Stefan left on his own choice, regardless of him saving Damon’s life. He did not then have to leave Mystic Falls. All of this that is happening from now, is Stefan’s own choice. He gave up on Elena. And Elena is moving on. She has the strength too. When its real, you can’t walk away, but both Stefan and Elena are doing just that. So why the hell can’t Damon kiss her? Just once…

The kiss isn’t passionate. It isn’t wall slamming, clothe ripping hotness like we know they will one day bless us with. BUT IT IS PERFECT. It’s Damon telling Elena that he loves her more than anything. It’s Damon showing her just how pure that love it.

I’ve seen people say she wasn’t into it. Well, EXCUSE ME. Physically, she wasn’t all over him, I’ll give you that. Because this is BIG. This is monumental. THIS IS HAPPENING. And she is knocked senseless by it. She isn’t aware of her body, just him.

Before his lips even touch hers, she is rising to meet him. He holds her so gently, and her hands clutch his, but not pulling him away this time. Her thumb brushes her hand. That is her way of saying, yes, this is okay. We see the shot of his car in the background, like a shot from some Hollywood blockbuster romance. And as some incredible DEr pointed out, that is the car in which the friendship began. All these little details. All of these parallels. They just add to the weight of the moment. No other ship on this show gets that treatment. Not by a long shot.

‘It’s everything you wanted…it’s one door swinging open…some prayers find an answer…we’re holding on.’

He doesn’t hold the kiss for too long, because he doesn’t need too. This isn’t about getting her to admit anything to him, or to promise him anything. It echoes their scene at the end of 3x02 in that way. It’s just about him having this one kiss, this one gift. But when he pulls away, Elena moves with him. She’s hungry for more. And he smiles. OMG, he smiles. HE KISSED HER GUYS. He kissed the woman he can never have. His Twin Flame. And it was mutual. SHE KISSED HIM BACK. I honestly cannot put into words the euphoria that Damon must have felt in that moment. I have this tight feeling in my chest just thinking about it!

And as he walks away, Elena is STILL frozen to that spot. He made her breathless. He knocked her socks off, as Julie her self said.

This isn’t THE moment where Damon and Elena skip off into the sunset together. They’re not together…they won’t have more kisses…probably not until the end of the season. But now its Elena’s turn. That kiss will be ALL she is thinking about. She has to decide what it is she really feels for Damon (love).

And I cannot WAIT until we get our Elena initiated kiss. S3 finale anyone?

SORRY FOR THE RAMBLE. I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT THIS IS. Probably typos everywhere!!

First real Delena kiss, with willing from both sides. Nothing exists but Delena. I am beyond obsessed, need help but i'm not willing to find some.

Yes,

Stefan saved Damon’s life.
Yes, Damon saved Stefan’s life.
Yes, Damon kissed Stefan’s ex-girlfriend.
Yes, Elena kissed her ex-boyfriend’s brother.
Yes, Elena is a free, single woman, who can kiss whoever she wants to kiss.
No, Damon cant control his feelings and love for Elena any longer.
No, Damon wasnt selfish, if you dont have amnesia, you’ll remember his love confession in 2x08.
Yes, Stefan is Damon’s brother, and he should love him no matter what happens. Their love should be unconditional. They should both love each other no matter what!
No, Damon doesnt owe Stefan to keep torturing himself and hiding his feelings inside until they eat him from the inside out.
Yes, Damon totally should be grateful that Stefan saved him!
NO, Damon should NOT be Stefan’s eternal slave because of it!

And this is the story of how i died.

THE END.

Died Jan. 5, 2012; AKA. Delena-Day.

JAG TÄNKER INTE SKAFFA HJÄLPEN SOM JAG UPPENBARLIGEN BEHÖVER.
Jag älskar detta.

the last half-hour i've been ranting my ass off.
hate that stelena fans are hating on Julie Plec just because Delena is happening.

omg delena filling my dash... i have so many feelings i can't--
i can't breathe what is air im hyperventilating kill me now let me die i cant live akuasdjahsgdjasdjhasdgasgj i dont know what to do with myself crying laughing dying screaming crying crying crying i srsly cant breathe... it hurts im overwhelmed with feelings

my dash på tumblr var fylld med Delena stills på kommande TVD episod, även massa spoilers om Delena och ja..... såhär såg ett utav mina inlägg ut..... http://facingtvd.tumblr.com/post/15045643605/this-is-how-i-feel-about-delena-in-every-way-possible

............ uhm ja. taggarna under inlägget beskriver också en hel del....

http://facingtvd.tumblr.com/  min tumblr ba sådär.

elijah/daniel gillies.

sitter atm och snackar med folks på skype... Har inget att göra seriöst. grabbarna jag snackar med ägnar sig helt åt sina trista spel och ba dissar mig lite och det händer typ inget på tumblr.. ):

exakt en vecka kvar till TVD och Delena. Julie Plec har avslöjat så otroligt mycket goda nyheter, jag vill bara dö.

this is. without doubt. truly the most awesome thing i've ever seen my entire life. I'm speechless. Seriöst, den är både rolig och typ allmänt awesome. Älskar den så jävla hårt. Från och med nu är detta min absoluta favoritvideo på hela jävla youtube. Och förlåt, men den övervinner till och med Sagan om de Bannlysta.

Julen är här - och sedan lika snabbt så är den över igen.

Trist, visst, men man är ju självklart glad över det fina man fått & gett, och den trevliga dagen man fått tillbringa med de man älskar. Jag var nog den i släkten som fick mest klappar, men Markus var inte långt efter, h0h0.

Fick nya högtalare - som jag fyi sitter och spelar musik ur atm och de är AWESOME. Tack så sjukt mycket, farmor och farfar! Jag fick The Vampire Diaries Lawn Bedding (klicka för att se), men det är ju skrattretande om hur de designat örngottet. På bilden visar de att det ska vara två örngott, fyrkantiga dock, och visst, i'm okay with that. Men sedan när jag öppnade förpackningen så visar det sig att det endast är ett örngott, som däremot är enormt. (80x80cm) Tryckte in två hela kuddar i den och det är fortfarande extremt mycket plats över. Amerikaner och deras sängkläder... Wellwell, det funkar. :p Hade väldigt gärna velat ha den här, men den var slut tyvärr. Men jag gillar mitt TVD Lawn bedding. Men skulle inte vara så dumt med en Team Salvatore heller. ;) Fick också en TVD bok jag önskat mig; A Visitor's Guide to Mystic Falls: Your favourite authors on The Vampire Diaries, edited by Red and Vee, www.vampire-diaries-net Boken är på engelska såklart:D. Boken handlar typ om att få lära sig mer om Mystic Falls' invånare och rikliga historia. Mystic Falls ligger förstås i USA, Virginia. Jag tror man får veta lite mer om Fell's Church också, det är där TVD utspelar sig i L.J Smith's storsäljande böcker (TVD). Det ligger också i Virginia.

Jag fick 5 par örhängen, en utav dessa är dock Ear Cuff(från Cathrine & Alva). :p Ett par stora Peace örhängen från mamma och pappa, två par av sådana jag kallar "matt-örhängen", ett par silvriga och ett par svarta(från Cathrine och Alva), sedan fick jag dödskalle örhängen som matchar min ring och mitt armband. Ja och så Ear Cuff med svarta fjädrar på. :D Och så fick jag ett jättefint halsband av Tinna, med två hjärtan på. Farmor berättade att hon hade sagt att hjärtana representerade hur mycket Tinna älskade mig och den speciella kärleken vi två delar. Rörde mig ganska mycket. Måste mejla och tacka.

Fick en ny sport-bh, ett datorspel och ett champangeglas som var gjort av plast men som kunde switcha färger och sådant. Fick nya trosor... Som om jag inte redan har typ en låda fylld. men men. De var fina. :P Oh right. Jag fick också linser. Vita. Eller ja... Jag vet inte om det är flera för när jag kollade var det bara en... Men vi får väl se ehe.. Oh. Fick också ett par guldfärgade dollar-tecken örhängen. De är dock supersmå.. Just det.. Fick ännu ett par örhängen, och sammanlagt är jag alltså uppe i 7 st nu. ÖGONFRANSBÖJARE FICK JAG OCKSÅ. Och ny mascara som för en gångs skull gör ögonfransarna längre och svartare. Det behöver jag.

Presentkort i Handen Centrum från farmor, 200:-, presentkort på Game, 500:-(:DDDDDDDDDD), från farmor och farfar också tror jag. Myes, Det var typ allt. Så kommer jag också få någon mer klapp idag från mamma och pappa, Simon och Markus med. Morfar kommer ju. Sen sa mamma också att en bok hon beställt inte kommit ännu såatteeh...

gav ju också familjen grejer. Mamma fick en badkudde jag köpt för att Simon och jag skulle ge, pappa fick te och bok från Simon, Markus och mig. Markus fick en Simpsons penga-bank och Simon fick en Coca-Cola sparbössa. En stor genomskinlig CocaCola flaska som har en öppning anpassad efter mynt. Sedan fick dem båda en WoW tidning. Ah det var typ det. jag vaknade för tre timmar sedan och först nu börjar jag bli hungrig så ska nog ta mig nåt att käkaaaa. EH.

BAI.