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Av sara o'brien - 6 december 2012 20:49

 

When the fan before me has her photo taken with Ian he turns directly at me, his eyes focusing on me and that caught me off-guard completely. His eyes. They were glowing. He smiled, he was genuinely happy. His eyes glowed.
"Hello Darling!" he said, emphasizing Darling, looking right at me with his absolutely gorgeous eyes. Damn, he's beautiful and perfect. He put his arm around me and I mechanically without thinking put my arm around him and had my hand on his waist. I had earlier planned on hugging him with both my arms, but when he had looked at me I had just forgotten everything. I couldn't even bring myself to grasp his waist properly. He was a bit smaller than I had imagined. About 175 cm or so. But honestly it didn't matter one single bit.

Ian pulled me in with his strong arm, held me tightly against him.
"You're amazing and I love you." I managed huskily with my face oh so near his chest and neck. I can't remember how I managed to tell him that but I did and he heard it. And I just knew he had heard me, because even though there was so much noise around us I was talking so near his ear. He didn't respond, and I was kind of prepared for that.
The picture was taken and I got pulled away from him. Then he turned back completely, looking straight at me and smiling warmly and comforting. "I love you too." he said. That surprised me. When I turned around to walk out my balance almost let me down, but I managed to take the card and my bag and get out. My heart was pounding fast and I started crying. Seriously. And I couldn't breathe properly. I hyperventilated and and cried and I really couldn't just handle it. 


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Ian: Hi, sweetie, how are you?
Me: I'm fine, now.
Ian: Better?
Me: Yeah.
Ian: That's good.
*gives me the photo*
Me: Thank you so much.
Ian: No, thank you so much.

After that I started hyperventilating again and I almost started crying again. Everything was so overwhelming. And I was shaking hard.

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Under panelen med Ian Somerhalder och Dawn Olivieri där jag fick fråga Ian en fråga. Mark Ferguson var presentatören för alla paneler och ceremonier. Han har inget med TVD att göra, däremot har han skådespelat i The Lord of The Rings trilogin.

 

När jag fick frågan:

"Hello love, what's your name?" Ian asked me, and though the distance he looked right at me, focused and interested. Smiling.
"Sara." I answered into the microphone. My voice echoed loudly through the enormous, quiet room, and it was a bit surprising. Expected but it took me by surprise.
"Oh hello, Sara. I'm Ian, nice to meet you. This is Dawn." he greeted me nicely and in a joking way told me who Dawn and he was. I already knew. Of course I did. He was my rolemodel. The most attractive man on earth. A gorgeous, handsome man, an amazing actor and such a nice and sweet guy who loves the planet and animals, and his fans.
"Hi." I said, couldn't help but smile. I was shaking in my entire body and I knew very well that why it was only mine, Ian Somerhalder's and Dawn Olivieri's voice that I heard was because the rest of the at least 500 people in there were listening to every word I was saying. Including Dawn and Ian.
"Hello, nice to meet you." Dawn smiled, playing along.
"Nice to meet you too." I said, probably smiling and now I ignored the fact that I heard my terrible voice loudly. My voice cracked slightly.
"And so my question is kind of off-topic, but I just need to know..." I said looking at Ian. He was, as a joke, oh-no'ing like he expected the most unappropriate question imaginable. But he wasn't serious. I was smiling the whole time, shaking but now that I had started it wasn't hard to keep going.
"Ian, do you like Star Wars?"
It was quiet for a bit but then a small group of people started cheering and clapping their hands as I saw Ian roll his whole head as in a geasture of pure of-course-ness.
"Who DOESN'T like Star Wars?!" he bursted out.
"Exactly!" I said into the microphone.
...
For a while Ian just sat there on the stage talking about how much he loved old movies and encouraged us to watch old movies, that we should watch the movies that was made in the beginning when we first started making movies and just learn about the history of movies. And of course he encourged us to watch old movies such as Star Wars, the first three movies.
...
"But to answer your question, yes I do like Star Wars, and the first three movies are absolutely the best. Thank you for your question, love." Ian said looking right at me, smiling and then he blew me a deep kiss.
"Thank you." I mumbled smiling, and then heard they had already turned off my microphone. But it was okay. God, I love this man.

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Och ser man på, Ian's doppelgänger visade sig vara där med sin, troligtvis, flickvän. Nej, det är inte Ian. Detta är Chris Christlow, Ian's dubbelgångare som även träffat Ian och tydligen förföljer honom.

Jag och Dawn Olivieri. Hon signerade den också.

 

Eftersom jag hade Gold Ticket så fick jag välja 4 foton i lobbyn gratis, och då valde jag tre st på Ian och denna. Denna signerade Paul Wesley och Zach Roerig

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Under maskeraden som pågick en kväll i hotellet. Det fantastiska jag tyckte var att de spelade TVD soundtrack'et, och när Within Temptation's All I Need började spelas så var det jättemånga som ställde upp sig på dansgolvet och började dansa dansen som Damon(Ian Somerhalder) och Elena(Nina Dobrev) dansade till just denna låt under avsnitt 19 i säsong 1, Miss Mystic Falls, under Miss Mystic Falls pegeant. Hade jag haft någon att dansa med hade även jag dansat, för detta råkar nämligen vara min absoluta favorit Delena-scen i hela The Vampire Diaries serien. Eller favoritscen överlag. Hade jag vetat om maskeraden hade jag även kollat om jag kunde klä ut mig.

 

Här är när alla dansar. Tyvärr syns det ju inte. Nästan alla är utklädda.

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Paul Wesley under hans panel. Rolig är han.

 


Dansen mellan Damon och Elena till All I Need.



Av sara o'brien - 7 juni 2012 10:41

Jo, och det är för att jag de senaste 2,5 veckorna har jag varit superdeppig och skit för tings och mått skit och har bara inte pallat. Nej, jag har inte repat mig ännu. Jag har gaaaaanska mycket jag skulle skrivit om som hänt, och som då får bli berättat om senare eftersom jag sitter i datorsalen i skolan nu och hemma har jag lite fullt upp.

Jag konfirmerades ju för ett tag sedan, två veckor sedan faktiskt. Det gick jättebra, och var trevligt och fint. Är dock småledsen över att det är över nu; vi har haft det så kul anser jag på alla dessa träffar och läger och allt, och nu är det borta. Har minnen... Menmen, jag fick en del presenter från släkten. 2500 kronor, smycken, kort, kramar och gratulationer. Sen slutligen, av mamma och pappa, fick jag i present att få åka till Tyskland imorgon med mamma och gå på Bloody Con med Gold Ticket! Innebär att jag kommer få träffa Ian Somerhalder, främst, få kort med honom, autograf, nån slags tröja och Meet&Greet. Sen typ käka middag vid samma bord som honom. Men jag kommer också få träffa Daniel Gillies och Paul Wesley.

Går upp klockan 5 imorgon bitti för att hinna med flyget. Mwahhhhhhhhh. <3

Av sara o'brien - 6 januari 2012 15:57

Hm. By now så vore det en underdrift att säga att jag är besatt av TVD och min underbara OTP.


SÅ. Jag skulle livestream'a TVD igår eftersom jag inte skulle överlevt mer utav denna hiatus. Men jag kommer ALDRIG livestream'a igen. Ugh. Mitt i en Delena scen så fuckades allt upp och jag var tvungen att vänta typ aslänge för att få ladda ner avsnittet och sen se klart. IT WAS FUCKIN WORTH IT THO. Hela denna fandomen exploderade och det är ett under att tumblr inte blev helt jävla överbelastat. Jag har spammat sönder min tumblr med shit från igår jskdhfjks och åh. Redan innan avsnittet kunde jag inte andas ordentligt, svalde hela tiden och det gjorde ont i magen av förväntan och spänning.


Jag, innan, efter och under avsnittet; Speciellt i slutet;


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Hm ja. LOTS OF FEELINGS.

SHIT FRÅN TUMBLR DÅ KOMMER NU.lovingdamonsalvatore:meet-me-in-1864:DO YOU HEAR THAT GUISE :)))))))))fuck yeah!

Things I am excited for tonight in TVD 

  • Delena

Speaking of Elena, it sounds like Nina Dobrev will be spending A LOT more screen time with her off-screen loverboy, Ian Somerhalder. Delena fans, we can’t say much, but we will say this: STAY TUNED!

Ett inlägg ifrån mig;

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i’m crying so hard my tears are falling and i’m struggeling with breathing… and my jaw hurts, i was biting a coca cola bottle during the whole porch scene and crying and whispering “i can’t i can’t i can’t omg omg please i can’t breathe oh god…” - true story. Satt och bet på en cola flaska under hela sista scenen, grät och viskade det där ovan, och sen typ fuckade min käke så den ba hej hoppar ur led lite under en stund. Det typ lät askonstigt. Inte för att jag paid so much attention, för upptagen med SCENEN OMG JAGDFUDSFHDSKJF jag har fortfarande inte kunnat bearbeta det ännu.

Flera inlägg ifrån tumblr eftersom hela jävla fandomen exploderade och folk bombarderade min dash med GIFs, edits och allt och jag kudne inte vara lyckligare. Det är fortfarande fyllt med DE.


“He’s got a reason to be in a good mood when we come back next week. We start the episode with him in the shower starting his day off with a smile.” — Julie Plec on Naked Damon scene.
Now I want next Thursday.

REASON:

Paramedics: You seem to have collapsed. So can you tell me what happened?
Me: They kissed.


Jag imorse;

Still replayin that porch scene like crazy, feeling my heart pound and cry and get all warm and 

every time i see that look on Damon’s face when saying “If i’m gonna feel guilty about something i’m gonna feel guilty about this” my heart skips a beat. No two. Nope, my heart literally stops for seconds. And when he places his hands around her face getting ready to kiss her and she is as fast as him meeting his lips my heart stops once again. I FUCKING CANT BELIEVE THEY KISSED… i need to lie down and die again to process it and wake up and re-watch  the scene and then believe it. And get my heart broken by that look on Damons face&bdquo; omg she clings to his hands like that, trying to make them stay there and to keep him close to her. Holding his hands, silently begging him “don’t let go, don’t ever let go.”

oh and that comforting, little Damon smile clad his face when he left. I could see the words “don’t worry, Elena. you don’t have to say anything. Just go to bed, and get some rest. We can talk about it some other time.” written in his face. Cause you can see that Elena is tryin to find the right words, or any words at all. She’s speechless and i understand her.
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His facial expression; "Fuck it, if i'm gonna feal guilt i can at least give that guilt a real reason to exist." Delena porch.
The lyrics of the song in the background;
It’s everything you wanted, it’s everything you don’t.
It’s one door swinging open, and one door swinging closed.
Some pairs find an answer, some pairs never know.
We’re holding on, we’re letting go.”

AKA.


Damon, Stefan
Damon, Stefan
Damon, Stefan
Damon, Stefan

If Elena goes around trying to pretend like that kissed never happened in the next episode I swear to god…

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Elena: Thank you.
Damon: You're welcome.
Elena: Not just for this, Damon. I don't know what I would do if you weren't here.
Damon: You should know this, Elena...Stefan didn't screw us over. He screwed us over, but he had a good reason.
Elena: What?
Damon: He saved Klaus to save me. And then he stole the coffins to get even.
Elena: Damon, if he did it to protect you, why would he even do that? What does that even mean?
Damon: What does it mean? It means that I'm an idiot. Because I thought, for one second, that I wouldn't have to feel guilty anymore.
Elena: What are you talking about? Guilty for what?
Damon: For wanting what I want.
Elena: Damon...
Damon: No, I know. Believe me, I get it. Brother's girl and all.
[walks down steps]
Damon: No, no, you know what...if I'm gonna feel guilty about something, I'm gonna feel guilty about this.
[walks back up steps and kisses Elena]
uxmakexmexsmile: it’s everything you wanted, it’s everything you don’t it’s one door swinging open and one door swinging closed
morvamp:Can I just say how much further I fell in love with Damon during this scene?  Not because of the obvious reason where he finally went for what he wanted, but because he made the amicable move and told her about Stefan first.  He didn’t leave that information out and gave Elena the option of deciding to kiss him back afterwards.  I could die of happiness right now.  This moment was downright PERFECTION!  And the porch… it was on the freaking porch!
Can I just say how much further I fell in love with Damon during this scene?  Not because of the obvious reason where he finally went for what he wanted, but because he made the amicable move and told her about Stefan first.  He didn’t leave that information out and gave Elena the option of deciding to kiss him back afterwards.  I could die of happiness right now.  This moment was downright PERFECTION!  And the porch… it was on the freaking porch!

SO MUCH DELENA ON MY DASH RIGHT NOW. I COULDN’T BE HAPPIER.

No, you know what. If i'm gonna feel guilty i'm gonna feel guilty about this.dot-dot-delena:The look that they give each other is just, “We finally crossed the line, fuck.” I think both of them are scared now because neither of them fought off that kiss. Elena didn’t push back she didn’t resist, she molded into his form, she melted with that kiss. Its like all that pent up drive she had to refuse his advances, and her own personal desires, just disintegrated beneath his smoldering passion and adoration for her. Her mouth a gape, almost begging him to push forward and kiss her again is just proof to her harboring desires that she keeps so well burred. This kiss went exactly as I hoped it would, his final realization of “What the hell? No, I’m going to grow a pair and kiss the woman I’m madly in love with because I might as well give some meaning to my guilt.” was much more meaningful to me than him weighing in the odds and just leaning in to see if she moved. The fact that he took her and just kissed the hell out of her and showed her what kind of passion lies in a man as in love as he is makes that kiss even more beautiful. They both can’t handle it anymore and he finally decides to do something about it. He spoke what the entire fandom has been screaming at for years, just kiss her!  Nothing could have been more perfect about that moment. I can’t wait to see the aftermath this might ensue.

The look that they give each other is just, “We finally crossed the line, fuck.” I think both of them are scared now because neither of them fought off that kiss. Elena didn’t push back she didn’t resist, she molded into his form, she melted with that kiss. Its like all that pent up drive she had to refuse his advances, and her own personal desires, just disintegrated beneath his smoldering passion and adoration for her. Her mouth a gape, almost begging him to push forward and kiss her again is just proof to her harboring desires that she keeps so well burred. This kiss went exactly as I hoped it would, his final realization of “What the hell? No, I’m going to grow a pair and kiss the woman I’m madly in love with because I might as well give some meaning to my guilt.” was much more meaningful to me than him weighing in the odds and just leaning in to see if she moved. The fact that he took her and just kissed the hell out of her and showed her what kind of passion lies in a man as in love as he is makes that kiss even more beautiful. They both can’t handle it anymore and he finally decides to do something about it. He spoke what the entire fandom has been screaming at for years, just kiss her!  Nothing could have been more perfect about that moment. I can’t wait to see the aftermath this might ensue.


That Delena kiss… I will admit something and have absolutely no shame whatsoever.
I cried. They kissed, I screamed, and I cried tears of joy when it was over. I’ve waited for this since day one. This ship has almost killed me with it’s absolute flawlessness.

Feel all the feelings!!

As soon as they step out onto that porch, you just know something special is about to happen. It’s their spot. The place where Elena first witnessed Damon to something selfless, when he first did something for her.

All he wants is to reassure her, to make her feel some sort of positive emotion. He tells her it will be okay, because he knows she has become her rock. He knows that she will take his words to heart, and then maybe she will sleep that little bit easier.

‘He’s so lucky to have you for a sister.’

This line just screams how much he loves her. Not even just love, but how much he is in AWE of her. He thinks that her strength, and her courage, when it comes to her family, is something supernatural in its own right. Basically, he looks at her and all he sees are rainbows. She’s an angel to him, she really is. Not that he has placed her on some pedestal, where she has to be perfect. No. He knows her flaws. He loves her flaws. But an angel in the sense that she is simply divine to him. There will never be another.

‘I don’t know what I would do if you weren’t here.’

This quote barely needs analysis. Her need, and want for him is clear. But its easy to just think of Season 3 with this. But the beauty is, she means ALL OF IT. Not just since Stefan left. EVERYTHING. From that moment in 1x07 when Stefan didn’t have the strength to do it but Damon did. And from that moment on, it was always Damon that saved her. It was always Damon that aided her. It was always Damon that would move heaven and earth to get to her. It was always Damon.

His face is so beautiful in this moment. You can tell how much it means to him, to hear those words…but then that guilt rears its head again. I won’t get into Damon/Stefan here, but the hate on Damon is ridiculous. Damon is in love with this girl, and for a long time he believed he would never have a chance with her. And that was okay. As long as she was safe and happy, then he would gladly sit back. But now she’s looking at him with those eyes, and he KNOWS she feels it too. Yet he still can’t have her? Even though she would be willing. Imagine how much that must be tearing him apart inside. 

And then there’s also that nagging though inside his head. ‘It’s always gonna be Stefan.’ While I am confident that the writers will show us otherwise, in the end, Damon still believes he is second best. So he turns, and takes a step away. It’s Damon that increases the space between them. It’s Damon that brings up Stefan. He HAS to be honest with her, and let her know why Stefan betrayed them. He HAS to know that everything between them, every feeling, is real.

‘For wanting what I want.’

The way his voice softens, sweet jesus. So much emotion in those few words. He has wanted her for SO LONG. And she is RIGHT THERE. And her eyes fall to his lips. HER EYES to HIS. Not the other way around. And she says ‘Damon’ but her voice is a whisper. She is already breathless. SHE WANTS IT TOO. But she has been fighting it for so long, that it terrifies her. The thought of what it all means, terrifies her. Yet when he turns to leave, she finds that she can’t move. She is frozen to the spot. Locked in a war with herself, her heart against her head.

Damon stops. Because why shouldn’t he have this one moment? Stefan left on his own choice, regardless of him saving Damon’s life. He did not then have to leave Mystic Falls. All of this that is happening from now, is Stefan’s own choice. He gave up on Elena. And Elena is moving on. She has the strength too. When its real, you can’t walk away, but both Stefan and Elena are doing just that. So why the hell can’t Damon kiss her? Just once…

The kiss isn’t passionate. It isn’t wall slamming, clothe ripping hotness like we know they will one day bless us with. BUT IT IS PERFECT. It’s Damon telling Elena that he loves her more than anything. It’s Damon showing her just how pure that love it.

I’ve seen people say she wasn’t into it. Well, EXCUSE ME. Physically, she wasn’t all over him, I’ll give you that. Because this is BIG. This is monumental. THIS IS HAPPENING. And she is knocked senseless by it. She isn’t aware of her body, just him.

Before his lips even touch hers, she is rising to meet him. He holds her so gently, and her hands clutch his, but not pulling him away this time. Her thumb brushes her hand. That is her way of saying, yes, this is okay. We see the shot of his car in the background, like a shot from some Hollywood blockbuster romance. And as some incredible DEr pointed out, that is the car in which the friendship began. All these little details. All of these parallels. They just add to the weight of the moment. No other ship on this show gets that treatment. Not by a long shot.

‘It’s everything you wanted…it’s one door swinging open…some prayers find an answer…we’re holding on.’

He doesn’t hold the kiss for too long, because he doesn’t need too. This isn’t about getting her to admit anything to him, or to promise him anything. It echoes their scene at the end of 3x02 in that way. It’s just about him having this one kiss, this one gift. But when he pulls away, Elena moves with him. She’s hungry for more. And he smiles. OMG, he smiles. HE KISSED HER GUYS. He kissed the woman he can never have. His Twin Flame. And it was mutual. SHE KISSED HIM BACK. I honestly cannot put into words the euphoria that Damon must have felt in that moment. I have this tight feeling in my chest just thinking about it!

And as he walks away, Elena is STILL frozen to that spot. He made her breathless. He knocked her socks off, as Julie her self said.

This isn’t THE moment where Damon and Elena skip off into the sunset together. They’re not together…they won’t have more kisses…probably not until the end of the season. But now its Elena’s turn. That kiss will be ALL she is thinking about. She has to decide what it is she really feels for Damon (love).

And I cannot WAIT until we get our Elena initiated kiss. S3 finale anyone?

SORRY FOR THE RAMBLE. I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT THIS IS. Probably typos everywhere!!


First real Delena kiss, with willing from both sides. Nothing exists but Delena. I am beyond obsessed, need help but i'm not willing to find some.

Yes,

Stefan saved Damon’s life.
Yes,
Damon saved Stefan’s life.
Yes,
Damon kissed Stefan’s ex-girlfriend.
Yes,
Elena kissed her ex-boyfriend’s brother.
Yes,
Elena is a free, single woman, who can kiss whoever she wants to kiss.
No,
Damon cant control his feelings and love for Elena any longer.
No,
Damon wasnt selfish, if you dont have amnesia, you’ll remember his love confession in 2x08.
Yes,
Stefan is Damon’s brother, and he should love him no matter what happens. Their love should be unconditional. They should both love each other no matter what!
No,
Damon doesnt owe Stefan to keep torturing himself and hiding his feelings inside until they eat him from the inside out.
Yes,
Damon totally should be grateful that Stefan saved him!
NO,
Damon should NOT be Stefan’s eternal slave because of it!



And this is the story of how i died.


THE END.



Died Jan. 5, 2012. Aka Delena-Day.
Died Jan. 5, 2012; AKA. Delena-Day.
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JAG TÄNKER INTE SKAFFA HJÄLPEN SOM JAG UPPENBARLIGEN BEHÖVER.
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Av sara o'brien - 29 december 2011 21:14

this is. without doubt. truly the most awesome thing i've ever seen my entire life. I'm speechless. Seriöst, den är både rolig och typ allmänt awesome. Älskar den så jävla hårt. Från och med nu är detta min absoluta favoritvideo på hela jävla youtube. Och förlåt, men den övervinner till och med Sagan om de Bannlysta.

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